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Do you ever get the feeling that you're on the outside looking in? Not at the world or anything, but at yourself, your own life?

Cause I feel like that.

I'm not me. I'm a lie. I'm watching myself live my life and it's weird and it's screwy and I am yelling at myself to stop screwing up, stop being the damn doormat and do what needs to be done... but it's like I can't hear myself.

I'm not living my life, I'm living somebody else's.

I'm on the outside looking in. And I hate what I see.