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queenrileyI've been told I need to update more often. I haven't much to say, other than I'm feeling lonely and a little hurt by a friend. Jeff was supposed to help him do something about a week and a half ago, but he refused to get up and help, so our friend was left to do it all by himself (it was tech work, or I would have helped him myself... I even offered, but I don't know how, so he logically said thanks but no). Well this friend was very angry at Jeff when Jeff finally got out of bed three hours later and offered his help with the last of what needed to be done. Said friend said no, if you couldn't help before, don't bother now. He did it all himself. Jeff lost out on helping a friend and the $200 the friend was going to pay him, which we desperately need right now before we get evicted or our electricity turned off. But Jeff made this friend mad. And now he won't return my calls or answer my emails, and he stood me up for an evening we'd had planned for about a week... which I said we could just exclude Jeff from if he was still mad, but he stood me up. I know he's alive and well because I've talked to his roommates. I also know he's getting my messages. So he's just not talking to us.
And I'm a little hurt by this because I didn't do anything wrong that I know of. I even asked what I did that is making him not speak to me, but he won't answer. I apologized for anything I might have done, but he won't answer. I can understand being angry at Jeff, cutting him out for awhile, but what did I do? The only thing I can figure is that he never really wanted to be my friend, but was under the mistaken impression that if he was going to be Jeff's friend he had to be mine as well, since Jeff and I are married. The thing is, that's just not true. If he wanted to be Jeff's friend but have nothing to do with me, that's fine. Jeff is allowed to have friends outside of the two of us. Not all his friends have to like me, and in fact not all of them do. And I'm okay with that. I have all of you, and I count you (well, those of you that aren't mutual friends in real life as well) as my friends outside of Jeff, and he's okay with that. He's glad I have all of you to talk to, because though he doesn't know you, he knows you make me happy and he's okay with anybody and anything that makes me happy. So if our friend was under the impression that he had to be my friend to be Jeff's friend, well, he was wrong. But I really don't think that's it. I just think he's being stubborn. Maybe he'll call in a weeks time and ladeda everything is fine again. Maybe he won't ever call again. I don't know what he'll do. I just wish I know what I did to make him cut me out of the picture as well as Jeff.
So aside from feeling a little lonely and hurt by this friend, I've been busy reading and taking care of Alex. No luck on the job front for me outside of the home, but two leads on in-home daycare work, which is good. One I'll find out about soon, is full time, two children Alex's age and younger. One is part-time, not more than two or three hours three days a week, but it doesn't start until August. Jeff has two leads for work which he will hopefully hear about Tuesday. He needs to start soon or we'll be in big trouble and I REALLY don't want to move back in with my parents. If I have to do that, I don't know where Jeff will go because he can't move back in with them. I just don't want this whole drama to play itself out once again. If I get those kids, we'll be okay. Here's to hoping.
Did the
1 The Godfather (1972)
2 The Shawshank Redemption (1994)
3 The Godfather: Part II (1974)
4 The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring (2001)
5 Schindler's List (1993)
6 Citizen Kane (1941)
7 Casablanca (1942)
8 Seven Samurai (1954)
9 Star Wars (1977)
10 Dr. Strangelove or: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb (1964)
11 Memento (2000)
12 One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest (1975)
13 Rear Window (1954)
14 The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers (2002)
15 Star Wars: Episode V - The Empire Strikes Back (1980)
16 Raiders of the Lost Ark (1981)
17 The Usual Suspects (1995)
18 Amelie (2001)
19 Pulp Fiction (1994)
20 North by Northwest (1959)
21 Psycho (1960)
22 The Silence of the Lambs (1991)
23 12 Angry Men (1957)
24 Lawrence of Arabia (1962)
25 It's a Wonderful Life (1946)
26 The Good, the Bad and the Ugly (1966)
27 Goodfellas (1990)
28 American Beauty (1999)
29 Vertigo (1958)
30 The Pianist (2002)
31 Sunset Blvd. (1950)
32 Apocalypse Now (1979)
33 Some Like It Hot (1959)
34 The Matrix (1999)
35 To Kill a Mockingbird (1962)
36 Taxi Driver (1976)
37 The Third Man (1949)
38 Paths of Glory (1957)
39 Fight Club (1999)
40 Das Boot (1981)
41 L.A. Confidential (1997)
42 Double Indemnity (1944)
43 Chinatown (1974)
44 Requiem for a Dream (2000)
45 The Maltese Falcon (1941)
46 Singin' in the Rain (1952)
47 The Bridge on the River Kwai (1957)
48 Sen to Chihiro no kamikakushi (2001)
49 Saving Private Ryan (1998)
50 All About Eve (1950)
51 M (1931)
52 Monty Python and the Holy Grail (1975)
53 Raging Bull (1980)
54 Once Upon a Time in the West (1968)
55 Se7en (1995)
56 Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon (2000)
57 The Wizard of Oz (1939)
58 2001: A Space Odyssey (1968)
59 La Vita e bella (1997)
60 American History X (1998)
61 The Sting (1973)
62 Touch of Evil (1958)
63 The Manchurian Candidate (1962)
64 Alien (1979)
65 Mr. Smith Goes to Washington (1939)
66 Rashomon (1950)
67 Leon (1994)
68 Annie Hall (1977)
69 The Great Escape (1963)
70 A Clockwork Orange (1971)
71 The Treasure of the Sierra Madre (1948)
72 Reservoir Dogs (1992)
73 The Sixth Sense (1999)
74 Jaws (1975)
75 Amadeus (1984)
76 On the Waterfront (1954)
77 Ran (1985)
78 Braveheart (1995)
79 High Noon (1952)
80 Fargo (1996)
81 Blade Runner (1982)
82 The Apartment (1960)
83 Aliens (1986)
84 Toy Story 2 (1999)
85 Strangers on a Train (1951)
86 Modern Times (1936)
87 The Shining (1980)
88 Donnie Darko (2001)
89 Duck Soup (1933)
90 The Princess Bride (1987)
91 Lola rennt (1998)
92 City Lights (1931)
93 The General (1927)
94 Metropolis (1927)
95 The Searchers (1956)
96 Full Metal Jacket (1987)
97 Notorious (1946)
98 Manhattan (1979)
99 Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid (1969)
100 Graduate, The (1967)
as well as the
Your favourite book before you could read. - Winnie the Pooh and Marvin K. Mooney, Will You Please Go Now. Bedtime for me as a very small child was always a harrowing experiance, not for having to go, but because I could never decide if I wanted another chapter of Winnie the Pooh or if I wanted Marvin K. Mooney. It was a difficult time.
Your favourite book when you started reading. - Winnie the Pooh
Your current favourite book from that earlier time. - Winnie the Pooh
Your favourite books across your life and now. - across my life? From childhood up to now? Winnie the Pooh.
Favourite author. - entirely too many to choose from... Nick Hornby for one, Jane Austen, the Bronte sisters... the list goes on and on and on.
Favourite poem. - Sonnet 130, William Shakespeare. I've read great poems, but this one has always been my favourite and I will always call it mine. The reasons keep popping up, more and more over the years.
Favourite book cover. - Erm... I don't pay much attention to the covers. It's what's inside that counts.
Favourite book title. - Winnie the Pooh
Favourite book beginning. - "Here is Edward Bear, coming downstairs now, bump, bump, bump, on the back of his head, behind Christopher Robin. It is, as far as he knows, the only way of coming downstairs, but sometimes he feels that there really is another way, if only he could stop bumping for a moment and think of it." Are we sensing a theme here? Really though, it is a rather stand-out way of begining a book, don't you think?
Favourite place to read. - anywhere... but if I had my choice of any place at all in the entire world... a comfy, padded window seat somewhere not hot, but not cold. Rain or shine, doesn't matter, so long as there is a large climbing tree nearby, should I desire to do as I did when I was a child and climb the tree to read... on sunny days, anyhow.
...THE MOST
The book that frightened you the most. - probably The Pianist, though not frightened in the "jump, someone is behind you, turn on all the lights" scary, but frightened for him, frightened at the horror that Jews of the time went through... frightened that, if it happened once and we forget, if we don't learn, it will happen again... has happened, in other countries, and that it could happen here too. Lest we forget.
The book that made you laugh the most. - just about anything by Nick Hornby... About a Boy was hilarious.
The book that made you cry the most. - Little Women. Sure, there have been other books that make me cry throughout the whole book, but after a second or even third reading, I stop crying at the sad parts. Little Women, on the other hand... well... I've read it countless times. I'm on my second or third copy of it for wearing out the others, and I STILL bawl my eyes out when Beth dies.
REMINDERS
Books that remind you of people you know. - Lots of books, lots of characters, lots of people
Books that remind you of places you've been. - Just about anything written by Patricia Cornwell with her Kay Scarpetta books. They are set in Richmond and I know every place she describes because I've lived there. Other books have certain scenes, settings, that might remind me of somewhere I've been, but I can't place a name on any of them.
Books that remind you of events in your life. - I don't want to go there...
MISCELLANEOUS/OTHER
The book you would like to have written. - The one I'm writing.
The book you "should not" love but do. - There is no such thing as a book you should not love.
The book you somehow lost or loaned and never got back. - There have been dozens, but I don't remember them right now.
The book you will probably never read. - If it's by John Steinbeck and I haven't been forced to read it yet, I won't. I can't stand Steinbeck's writing.
The author you'd like to have a meal with. - JK Rowling, of course.
The character you'd like to meet. - waaaayyyy too many to list
The book you would like to write. - The one I'm writing.
And I'm a little hurt by this because I didn't do anything wrong that I know of. I even asked what I did that is making him not speak to me, but he won't answer. I apologized for anything I might have done, but he won't answer. I can understand being angry at Jeff, cutting him out for awhile, but what did I do? The only thing I can figure is that he never really wanted to be my friend, but was under the mistaken impression that if he was going to be Jeff's friend he had to be mine as well, since Jeff and I are married. The thing is, that's just not true. If he wanted to be Jeff's friend but have nothing to do with me, that's fine. Jeff is allowed to have friends outside of the two of us. Not all his friends have to like me, and in fact not all of them do. And I'm okay with that. I have all of you, and I count you (well, those of you that aren't mutual friends in real life as well) as my friends outside of Jeff, and he's okay with that. He's glad I have all of you to talk to, because though he doesn't know you, he knows you make me happy and he's okay with anybody and anything that makes me happy. So if our friend was under the impression that he had to be my friend to be Jeff's friend, well, he was wrong. But I really don't think that's it. I just think he's being stubborn. Maybe he'll call in a weeks time and ladeda everything is fine again. Maybe he won't ever call again. I don't know what he'll do. I just wish I know what I did to make him cut me out of the picture as well as Jeff.
So aside from feeling a little lonely and hurt by this friend, I've been busy reading and taking care of Alex. No luck on the job front for me outside of the home, but two leads on in-home daycare work, which is good. One I'll find out about soon, is full time, two children Alex's age and younger. One is part-time, not more than two or three hours three days a week, but it doesn't start until August. Jeff has two leads for work which he will hopefully hear about Tuesday. He needs to start soon or we'll be in big trouble and I REALLY don't want to move back in with my parents. If I have to do that, I don't know where Jeff will go because he can't move back in with them. I just don't want this whole drama to play itself out once again. If I get those kids, we'll be okay. Here's to hoping.
Did the
1 The Godfather (1972)
2 The Shawshank Redemption (1994)
3 The Godfather: Part II (1974)
4 The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring (2001)
5 Schindler's List (1993)
6 Citizen Kane (1941)
7 Casablanca (1942)
8 Seven Samurai (1954)
9 Star Wars (1977)
10 Dr. Strangelove or: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb (1964)
11 Memento (2000)
12 One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest (1975)
13 Rear Window (1954)
14 The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers (2002)
15 Star Wars: Episode V - The Empire Strikes Back (1980)
16 Raiders of the Lost Ark (1981)
17 The Usual Suspects (1995)
18 Amelie (2001)
19 Pulp Fiction (1994)
20 North by Northwest (1959)
21 Psycho (1960)
22 The Silence of the Lambs (1991)
23 12 Angry Men (1957)
24 Lawrence of Arabia (1962)
25 It's a Wonderful Life (1946)
26 The Good, the Bad and the Ugly (1966)
27 Goodfellas (1990)
28 American Beauty (1999)
29 Vertigo (1958)
30 The Pianist (2002)
31 Sunset Blvd. (1950)
32 Apocalypse Now (1979)
33 Some Like It Hot (1959)
34 The Matrix (1999)
35 To Kill a Mockingbird (1962)
36 Taxi Driver (1976)
37 The Third Man (1949)
38 Paths of Glory (1957)
39 Fight Club (1999)
40 Das Boot (1981)
41 L.A. Confidential (1997)
42 Double Indemnity (1944)
43 Chinatown (1974)
44 Requiem for a Dream (2000)
45 The Maltese Falcon (1941)
46 Singin' in the Rain (1952)
47 The Bridge on the River Kwai (1957)
48 Sen to Chihiro no kamikakushi (2001)
49 Saving Private Ryan (1998)
50 All About Eve (1950)
51 M (1931)
52 Monty Python and the Holy Grail (1975)
53 Raging Bull (1980)
54 Once Upon a Time in the West (1968)
55 Se7en (1995)
56 Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon (2000)
57 The Wizard of Oz (1939)
58 2001: A Space Odyssey (1968)
59 La Vita e bella (1997)
60 American History X (1998)
61 The Sting (1973)
62 Touch of Evil (1958)
63 The Manchurian Candidate (1962)
64 Alien (1979)
65 Mr. Smith Goes to Washington (1939)
66 Rashomon (1950)
67 Leon (1994)
68 Annie Hall (1977)
69 The Great Escape (1963)
70 A Clockwork Orange (1971)
71 The Treasure of the Sierra Madre (1948)
72 Reservoir Dogs (1992)
73 The Sixth Sense (1999)
74 Jaws (1975)
75 Amadeus (1984)
76 On the Waterfront (1954)
77 Ran (1985)
78 Braveheart (1995)
79 High Noon (1952)
80 Fargo (1996)
81 Blade Runner (1982)
82 The Apartment (1960)
83 Aliens (1986)
84 Toy Story 2 (1999)
85 Strangers on a Train (1951)
86 Modern Times (1936)
87 The Shining (1980)
88 Donnie Darko (2001)
89 Duck Soup (1933)
90 The Princess Bride (1987)
91 Lola rennt (1998)
92 City Lights (1931)
93 The General (1927)
94 Metropolis (1927)
95 The Searchers (1956)
96 Full Metal Jacket (1987)
97 Notorious (1946)
98 Manhattan (1979)
99 Butch Cassidy and the Sundance Kid (1969)
100 Graduate, The (1967)
as well as the
Your favourite book before you could read. - Winnie the Pooh and Marvin K. Mooney, Will You Please Go Now. Bedtime for me as a very small child was always a harrowing experiance, not for having to go, but because I could never decide if I wanted another chapter of Winnie the Pooh or if I wanted Marvin K. Mooney. It was a difficult time.
Your favourite book when you started reading. - Winnie the Pooh
Your current favourite book from that earlier time. - Winnie the Pooh
Your favourite books across your life and now. - across my life? From childhood up to now? Winnie the Pooh.
Favourite author. - entirely too many to choose from... Nick Hornby for one, Jane Austen, the Bronte sisters... the list goes on and on and on.
Favourite poem. - Sonnet 130, William Shakespeare. I've read great poems, but this one has always been my favourite and I will always call it mine. The reasons keep popping up, more and more over the years.
Favourite book cover. - Erm... I don't pay much attention to the covers. It's what's inside that counts.
Favourite book title. - Winnie the Pooh
Favourite book beginning. - "Here is Edward Bear, coming downstairs now, bump, bump, bump, on the back of his head, behind Christopher Robin. It is, as far as he knows, the only way of coming downstairs, but sometimes he feels that there really is another way, if only he could stop bumping for a moment and think of it." Are we sensing a theme here? Really though, it is a rather stand-out way of begining a book, don't you think?
Favourite place to read. - anywhere... but if I had my choice of any place at all in the entire world... a comfy, padded window seat somewhere not hot, but not cold. Rain or shine, doesn't matter, so long as there is a large climbing tree nearby, should I desire to do as I did when I was a child and climb the tree to read... on sunny days, anyhow.
...THE MOST
The book that frightened you the most. - probably The Pianist, though not frightened in the "jump, someone is behind you, turn on all the lights" scary, but frightened for him, frightened at the horror that Jews of the time went through... frightened that, if it happened once and we forget, if we don't learn, it will happen again... has happened, in other countries, and that it could happen here too. Lest we forget.
The book that made you laugh the most. - just about anything by Nick Hornby... About a Boy was hilarious.
The book that made you cry the most. - Little Women. Sure, there have been other books that make me cry throughout the whole book, but after a second or even third reading, I stop crying at the sad parts. Little Women, on the other hand... well... I've read it countless times. I'm on my second or third copy of it for wearing out the others, and I STILL bawl my eyes out when Beth dies.
REMINDERS
Books that remind you of people you know. - Lots of books, lots of characters, lots of people
Books that remind you of places you've been. - Just about anything written by Patricia Cornwell with her Kay Scarpetta books. They are set in Richmond and I know every place she describes because I've lived there. Other books have certain scenes, settings, that might remind me of somewhere I've been, but I can't place a name on any of them.
Books that remind you of events in your life. - I don't want to go there...
MISCELLANEOUS/OTHER
The book you would like to have written. - The one I'm writing.
The book you "should not" love but do. - There is no such thing as a book you should not love.
The book you somehow lost or loaned and never got back. - There have been dozens, but I don't remember them right now.
The book you will probably never read. - If it's by John Steinbeck and I haven't been forced to read it yet, I won't. I can't stand Steinbeck's writing.
The author you'd like to have a meal with. - JK Rowling, of course.
The character you'd like to meet. - waaaayyyy too many to list
The book you would like to write. - The one I'm writing.
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Date: 2003-05-25 06:13 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2003-05-25 10:26 am (UTC)Re:
Date: 2003-05-25 04:47 pm (UTC)So... thanks. Cause y'know, I love you even when you are being a dick. ;) (though if you are being a dick to Bevin, that love will turn around and kick you in your ass)