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Nov. 18th, 2002 08:37 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
queenrileyHave just deleted a rather ugly post... I don't like wallowing in self pity and I really need to work harder at not doing it. I'm not a 4 year old anymore. It's okay for the girl I babysit to throw a tantrum and get upset and make sure the world knows it, but she's 4. I'm 21. I really need to get over myself. Next time I put up a post like will somebody e-slap me? Please?
I'd blame it on the full moon, but that's not right. Normally I get antsy and jumpy during the full moon. I get very upity, not morose and depressing. So, eh, go figure. I can't really blame it on hormones either... still another week (at least) before I hit my pre-period depression/psycosis. So whatever it was that made me want to wallow in self-pity, it's gone now and I'm working on keeping it from coming back. Bah to it, I say, bah.
It might be the birds... I don't much like birds. Sure they are pretty to look at and can come in darn useful, but to wake up and have a racket of them outside your bedroom window is rather irritating. To have to shoo a dozen or so off your car in the wee hours of the morning is relatively annoying. And nothing irks me like having a freshly washed car and then suddenly having bird droppings all over it... or on the roof of the house, or the driveway, or anywhere else. They are scarce in the spring and summer. But it's fall that we are overrun with birds. All kinds migrating south for the winter stop here until December/January or so when they move a bit farther south. They tend to make me grumpy. I don't want to be grumpy.
After all, this is a time to be happy!
1. Chamber of Secrets is in theaters and an awesome movie. I'm seeing it again tonight with my best friend (her first viewing). I actually got a babysitter in the middle of the week... so long as it's after the 4 year old gets picked up. I saw it first with two other Quillers and had a blast. It was the best night I've had in quite a long time. We are planning on meeting up for the release of the Two Towers as well. I can't wait!
2. The 4 year old turns 5 tomorrow. It's going to be a big event. I'm bringing cupcakes to her school for her whole class to share. She's getting a few presents here after school. We're going to visit my grandmother-in-law, whom she looks upon as her own grandmother too. She's getting presents there. I'm baking her a cake just for her and we're going to have ice cream and make it into the happenest shebang in the whole neighborhood. :)
3. Thanksgiving is next week. I have a lot to be thankful for, even if half the time I'm too blind to see it. I have a wonderful husband. I have the sweetest daughter in the world (of course, I'm a little biased... every mother thinks her daughters are the sweetest). My family cares about me, even if they show it in very very strange and seemingly un-caring ways. My in-laws aren't all bad. Very much to be thankful for indeed.
4. Moving date is December 14th and 15th. All our stuff should be in the new apartment by then. And finally I'll have my family back together again.
5. Hannukah is just around the corner! It starts the night of the 30th, which means the last night of Hannukah, a celebration unto itself, falls on the Sabbath! Even more reason to celebrate. It will be a truely joyous Hannukah this year. :)
6. The weather, while warm during the day (in the 70's... too warm for me at this time of year, but what can you do, eh?), is nice and chilly during my most active and busy outside time, between 5:30-7:00 am. It's nice to see your breath mist in the air in front of you. The nip of the cold at your fingers and nose is pure delight. The conversion from icy to warm air as you suck in a deep breath upon your first step outside is calming to me. To feel the cold right down the marrow of your soul is actually a feeling I await year round. I'm never as happy as I am when I'm outside in the cold, crisp, new air.
I'd blame it on the full moon, but that's not right. Normally I get antsy and jumpy during the full moon. I get very upity, not morose and depressing. So, eh, go figure. I can't really blame it on hormones either... still another week (at least) before I hit my pre-period depression/psycosis. So whatever it was that made me want to wallow in self-pity, it's gone now and I'm working on keeping it from coming back. Bah to it, I say, bah.
It might be the birds... I don't much like birds. Sure they are pretty to look at and can come in darn useful, but to wake up and have a racket of them outside your bedroom window is rather irritating. To have to shoo a dozen or so off your car in the wee hours of the morning is relatively annoying. And nothing irks me like having a freshly washed car and then suddenly having bird droppings all over it... or on the roof of the house, or the driveway, or anywhere else. They are scarce in the spring and summer. But it's fall that we are overrun with birds. All kinds migrating south for the winter stop here until December/January or so when they move a bit farther south. They tend to make me grumpy. I don't want to be grumpy.
After all, this is a time to be happy!
1. Chamber of Secrets is in theaters and an awesome movie. I'm seeing it again tonight with my best friend (her first viewing). I actually got a babysitter in the middle of the week... so long as it's after the 4 year old gets picked up. I saw it first with two other Quillers and had a blast. It was the best night I've had in quite a long time. We are planning on meeting up for the release of the Two Towers as well. I can't wait!
2. The 4 year old turns 5 tomorrow. It's going to be a big event. I'm bringing cupcakes to her school for her whole class to share. She's getting a few presents here after school. We're going to visit my grandmother-in-law, whom she looks upon as her own grandmother too. She's getting presents there. I'm baking her a cake just for her and we're going to have ice cream and make it into the happenest shebang in the whole neighborhood. :)
3. Thanksgiving is next week. I have a lot to be thankful for, even if half the time I'm too blind to see it. I have a wonderful husband. I have the sweetest daughter in the world (of course, I'm a little biased... every mother thinks her daughters are the sweetest). My family cares about me, even if they show it in very very strange and seemingly un-caring ways. My in-laws aren't all bad. Very much to be thankful for indeed.
4. Moving date is December 14th and 15th. All our stuff should be in the new apartment by then. And finally I'll have my family back together again.
5. Hannukah is just around the corner! It starts the night of the 30th, which means the last night of Hannukah, a celebration unto itself, falls on the Sabbath! Even more reason to celebrate. It will be a truely joyous Hannukah this year. :)
6. The weather, while warm during the day (in the 70's... too warm for me at this time of year, but what can you do, eh?), is nice and chilly during my most active and busy outside time, between 5:30-7:00 am. It's nice to see your breath mist in the air in front of you. The nip of the cold at your fingers and nose is pure delight. The conversion from icy to warm air as you suck in a deep breath upon your first step outside is calming to me. To feel the cold right down the marrow of your soul is actually a feeling I await year round. I'm never as happy as I am when I'm outside in the cold, crisp, new air.
