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Nov. 26th, 2003 06:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
queenrileySo I was wrong. Very wrong. We aren't just having one dinner tomorrow. Yay. Lucky us. Jeff's mother called asking what time we'd be there because they are eating at 2... and what does he mean we aren't bringing any green bean casserole? First of all, I don't eat green bean casserole. I never have. Green beans are fine, but in a casserole they are gross... I think it's the mushrooms which I do not eat for I am not at all fond of them. Secondly, I've made green bean casserole once in my entire life and that was last night so Jeff could take it to work today for the office "feast". According to Jeff it was disgusting (he is also not a fan of green bean casserole) but he said the rest of the office thought it was okay.
And what happened to us not eating there at all? What happened to showing up late and just spending some time, rather than being there for dinner? Apparently not an option. Jeff tried. I'll give him credit for that. But we will be showing up there at 2 and eating, though I won't eat hardly anything and Jeff has been told he's eating a portion the size of something that would normally fill me up (meaning, not much at all). And we won't be sticking around for dessert because I told my mother we'd be over at 3 so I could help with the last minute cooking rush stuff. And I WILL NOT let my mother down again, not for Lyn. My mother has sacrificed Christmas mornings for the past three years, Thanksgiving and Christmas dinners for the past three years (in other words, we show up but we don't eat much because we were ordered to be at Lyn's). She's moving away in a year and I will not make our last communal holidays be a big disapointment for her, all because of Jeff's parents whom will not be moving half a country away.
We will not be doing this for Christmas. We will not spend first thing Christmas morning there, I don't care what she demands. If she demands it, Jeff can be there. Alex and I will show up later. First thing Christmas morning will be spent here, at home, just us. When we are done here we will then slowly and leisurely make our way over to Jeff's parents. Mine will wait because damnit, if we are doing presents first thing with Jeff's parents, we won't be there for dinner. Once again, if it's demanded, Jeff can stay but Alex and I will leave. They aren't my parents and they'll hate me as soon as they find out about my converting to Judaism anyway, so I don't need to take orders.
I really really hate the holidays.
The worst part? I'm so freaking angry right now that I'm snipping and being generally mean to Jeff, which is causing more tension and badness and I'm really hating this. A lot. Too much.
At this moment I just want to completely do away with extended family on holidays. I want to move very very far away from people so holidays are like they were when I was a kid... just my immediate family. Screw the rest of them. I shouldn't get this upset because of a holiday I'm supposed to be enjoying. As it is I dread this time of year.
Screw it. I don't want to rant more right now. I have laundry to do before it gets too late. I'll just go take my anger out in the workout room while I wait for the laundry to finish.
And what happened to us not eating there at all? What happened to showing up late and just spending some time, rather than being there for dinner? Apparently not an option. Jeff tried. I'll give him credit for that. But we will be showing up there at 2 and eating, though I won't eat hardly anything and Jeff has been told he's eating a portion the size of something that would normally fill me up (meaning, not much at all). And we won't be sticking around for dessert because I told my mother we'd be over at 3 so I could help with the last minute cooking rush stuff. And I WILL NOT let my mother down again, not for Lyn. My mother has sacrificed Christmas mornings for the past three years, Thanksgiving and Christmas dinners for the past three years (in other words, we show up but we don't eat much because we were ordered to be at Lyn's). She's moving away in a year and I will not make our last communal holidays be a big disapointment for her, all because of Jeff's parents whom will not be moving half a country away.
We will not be doing this for Christmas. We will not spend first thing Christmas morning there, I don't care what she demands. If she demands it, Jeff can be there. Alex and I will show up later. First thing Christmas morning will be spent here, at home, just us. When we are done here we will then slowly and leisurely make our way over to Jeff's parents. Mine will wait because damnit, if we are doing presents first thing with Jeff's parents, we won't be there for dinner. Once again, if it's demanded, Jeff can stay but Alex and I will leave. They aren't my parents and they'll hate me as soon as they find out about my converting to Judaism anyway, so I don't need to take orders.
I really really hate the holidays.
The worst part? I'm so freaking angry right now that I'm snipping and being generally mean to Jeff, which is causing more tension and badness and I'm really hating this. A lot. Too much.
At this moment I just want to completely do away with extended family on holidays. I want to move very very far away from people so holidays are like they were when I was a kid... just my immediate family. Screw the rest of them. I shouldn't get this upset because of a holiday I'm supposed to be enjoying. As it is I dread this time of year.
Screw it. I don't want to rant more right now. I have laundry to do before it gets too late. I'll just go take my anger out in the workout room while I wait for the laundry to finish.
